Sunday, December 12, 2010
T minus 13 hours... *gulp*
Thirteen hours from now, I'll be sitting in our specialist's office in Montréal...
... scared sh*tless.
I have no idea how this appointment is going to play out, but I am nervous tonight as I contemplate the various scenarios.
I just hope I don't walk out of there like I did our first appointment with the staff at McGill. I remember sniffling in the parking lot, bawling my eyes out by the time I sat down in the car and totally breaking down on our way back home. I was terrified.
At that time, we had already done so much and gone through so many tests, tears, grief and pain over the previous six years, I didn't know if I could pull myself together to get the "rest" of the tests done for the folks in MTL.
But I managed. We did it.
And look where it got us.
Please God, let tomorrow go well. I would love to make our little girl a big sister at the end of all this.