Monday, December 04, 2006

CD21; aka 8dp dIUI #1

Dear Lord... how do I keep myself from going stark raving mad in this 2ww? I mean seriously! I am doing my darndest to keep busy, to not obsess, to focus on good things, to not let the progesterone turn me into a mad woman (although hubby had serious doubts about the success of THAT endeavor yesterday!), to not think about POAS, to think positively, etc. I'm fretting like some woman on crack about my temps, I'm choosing new flooring for the little bedroom with new décor for a 'maybe baby' in mind... I think I've lost it. I think I'm ready to jump off the bridge of insanity. Honest to goodness. It's nuts. Or maybe I'm just nuts. I've no idea anymore. *runs around frantically hither and yon, wide-eyed and hyperventilating*

I wish I felt something, anything, to indicate that this dIUI worked. I think that is where my brain is right now... just wishing that there was some sort of sign that would take me out of limboland and put me definitively on one side of the fence or the other. How do you all manage? What keeps you from POAS every day? What stops you from obsessing? And/or what was your first inkling that "this may have worked"?


Shop Girl said...

I was pretty obsessive after my first DIUI, which resulted in a chemical pregnancy. So that was a doozy in that I really felt different and pregnant, and miscarried at 7 weeks.

My next cycle, I was pretty ho-hum about, because I didn't want to repeat the whole obsess-and-be-let-down pattern. This week, I'm about to go through my 3rd DIUI cycle, and it didn't even click for me that my husband was going to be out of town for it because I really haven't been thinking about it very much. So I guess a pattern is developing!

Good luck finishing out the 2WW. Fingers are crossed for a BFP.

Dramalish said...

I'm not going to tell you one thing that was different about my BFP cycle, because it make you obsess even harder, and if there's one thing I've learned around the blogosphere, it's that every woman is different.

I can tell you that I was sure towards the end of the 2ww that I was NOT pregnant and that AF was coming.

Keep busy. It's the only way to make it through.
Much luck, babe.