Tuesday, September 04, 2007

The hits just keep on comin'

Well first off, let me thank all of you for the kind words and compliments on the pic in my last entry. It's a pretty decent pic I suppose. I liked it well enough to show it to all you guys huh? And I have to agree with Katie, hubby is kinda hawt. I'm so very lucky that he's mine and I know that.

It has been a bit of a rough weekend though. Nearing the end of yet another cycle and all, with bloodwork on the horizon, and some difficult news to deal with.

A friend of mine got married in May. She and her husband decided that they wanted to start trying to have a family. You know where this is going don't you? Of course you do. Anyway, my friend called me late last week and left a message. She didn't tell me the news in the message but when she left her message, I suspected. So instead, I wrote her an e-mail.

I got your message last night. Thanks for calling. When you called, hubby and I were out and we never got home til a bit later.

While I have your message, I'll be honest and tell you that I'm really hesitant to call you back. Not that I don't want to talk to you of course! Because I do. I just don't think that I can handle hearing any "good news" that you might have to impart. Certainly I wouldn't be able to handle that on the phone. And I am sure it would be awfully rude of me to cry in your ear or to hang up on you! That wouldn't be cool at all.

But as you know, it's an awfully sensitive subject with me (and with hubby) and while I would be very happy for you, actually HEARING the news would be extremely difficult and I'd need time. I hope you can understand that.

When other people are trying to have children, and they then talk to couples like me and my hubby who are in a very tough place with regards to our own efforts, it's easy to forget that our feelings are EXTREMELY raw. That's all.

So... if you DO have good news (and I'm crossing my fingers that you do), it would be much easier for me to receive it by e-mail and give me time to process it first. I hope you can understand that hon.

Get in touch when you can and in the meantime, give my love to your hubby.

My friend got back to me via e-mail and told me the news; her first month of TTC after their wedding and it worked.

I wish I could crawl into a hole and forget this pain ever existed.


Kate said...

A very dear friend got pregnant after trying for only one month. It is so hard to deal with.

Thalia said...

ugh, that's got to hurt. I have always found it hard to be around those babies that came while we were trying. They should have been mine.

Glad your friend was sensitive to your needs in the end, however.

ultimatejourney said...

You handled the situation with dignity and grace. Hats off to you.

Heather said...

Good for you.

I'm sorry about the news though - that is always tough to hear.

Anonymous said...

Your email was simply amazing. I may ask to borrow it at a later date.

I am sorry the hits keep coming, it is such a tough blow.

Nearlydawn said...

Wow, sorry you have to get that kind of news. And yet, I am sure you are happy for your friend.

I hope you'll be able to make it to your own dream in time. Until then, I hope you are able to take those hits life is gonna throw at you.

Katie said...

AAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This just isn't fair. So glad you are taking care of you by setting boundaries and telling people what your preferences are. That is so healthy. BUT AAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH it's not fair, it's not fair, it's not FAIR! Ok sympathetic tantrum over...for now.

CAM said...

Oh man that just sucks. Totally sucks. It is just another reminder of what we cannot do and it hurts so deeply. Crawling in the hole sounds like a fine idea. You have every right to feel angry and sad. You also did the right thing by respecting her good news and also protecting yourself.

Anonymous said...

good for you. you handled that so well...thanks for sharing it.
i just caught up on your last post too...congrats on all that as well, and love the pic!!!

Jason and Samantha said...

((hugs)) It is so tough to deal with that.. even know.. it hurts that all these people get pregnant sooooooooo easily.


decemberbaby said...

I'm applauding your chosen course of action... and the wording of your email. Beautifully done.

And lots of hugs to you. Hearing that kind of news is so demoralizing.

Aurelia said...

I'm sorry Gil. I hope you get to send her an email with good news someday soon.

Maybe the election announcement will help you guys? I hope. ((hugs))