As you can probably guess, I was on pins and needles all day, just waiting and watching the phone, afraid for it to ring and convey the bad news.
But the phone call didn't come. 1:00 p.m. came and went... no call. 2:00 p.m. passed by, and still no call. At 3:00 p.m. I e-mailed hubby; I usually leave the office at 3:15 to head downtown to pick him up before we wend our way out to the east end of town where we live. I told him that I had no news. And I wasn't sure if I ought to call the clinic. He replied to my e-mail and said, "Well, you can wait for the call at home later, or you can try to call them now before you leave." I decided to opt for the latter and nervously I picked up the phone.
Me: "Hi, my name is Gil and I am a patient of Dr. Tan's. I was..."
Nurse: "Oh yes, Gil. Hi this is (Nurse L)
Me: "Well, um, I'm fine but I'm wondering if anyone there might have received my beta results yet. I was calling to find out if..."
Nurse: "I was just going to go check the fax machine again; we don't have your results yet but if you would like to wait on the line, I'll go look for you."
Me: "Sure, I can hold for a few minutes."
Off she went to check the fax. Cue the deep breathing on my end, closing my eyes, sitting back in my chair saying to myself, "Be prepared for a negative. Be prepared. She will come back and tell you it's negative."
*rustling of the phone*
Nurse: "Mrs. G?"
Nurse: "Well I have your results here in my hand, they just arrived."
Me: *heart beating in my throat* "Okaaay... "
Nurse: "It's positive."
Me: *a moment of silence* "You're kidding."
Nurse: "No, I'm not kidding. This is Mrs. G from Ottawa right?"
Me: *shock setting in* "Yes..."
Nurse: "It's definitely positive. Your number is 108."
Me: "Oh my God. Thank you. Thank you so much. I'm just shocked. Totally shocked!" *happy laughter*
We chatted a bit more and she told me that because my number was over 100, they don't ask for a second beta. The next part is the viability ultrasound so I have to call and ask my local RE for that appointment on or around January 2.
Colour me shocked folks. I am really stunned. I expected a negative but luckily a whole lot of people are praying for me right now.
Tonight, I went out and bought one of the expensive HPTs and I POAS to see what it looked like. Remember, I've never seen one before. And I'm thrilled... for the first time, I see a positive result.
Bless all you bloggers for having faith. You have no idea how much you all mean to me right now.